For those of you that care and those that don't a lot has changed, some good, some bad. Since October 2013... 2 years ago to the month.
In the following year of 2014 my Dad's health began to deteriorate rapidly, he had terrible lungs all along, really nothing special due to a disease but from the start to the end his lungs deteriorated to about 28% capacity and now he's on oxygen 24/7 they tried to stop the progression with chemo and various other treatments but right now the best that's possible is the deterioration plateauing. He still keeps in great spirits even though he is no longer fit to work and inspires me every single day.
In other news, I failed my first year in college so retook it and got declined my application for head girl. In my retake year I got voted in chairperson of the sixth form committee and now I've finally made it to my final year of college and I finally got my head girl position.I'm appreciating every single day of my education and am so determined to succeed this year.
Earlier in the year I started seeing someone who in fact told me they loved me then after sleeping with me decided I was clearly not the one for me. He left, with my virginity. Something I will never have back, but will never regret for at the time it was what I wanted, what felt right, even though I now know he wasn't right for me.
The 'Collin' I was so infatuated with back in October 2013 and I do occassionally speak as a matter of fact and I still wonder what could've happened had he been nearer. However, not so much of late. As recently I got myself a boyfriend. I know, me a boyfriend. The day I never thought would come. Not only is he the first person who is just on my bloody wavelength all the time, but he gets me, he adores me just as much as I do him and I can honestly say I have never been in love with someone to the extent I love my Luke.
I hope I don't look back on here in years to come and find that he wasn't the one I would end up with because I can truly invisage my life with him, every aspect.
I'm going to try and keep you updated because I forgot how cathartic this blog really is for me.
Good night,
The girl in a dream world.
p.s. Happy Halloween....
